Inside Social Anxiety

Photo By: Salvatore Vuono

Photo By: Salvatore Vuono

 I don’t hate people.

I just hate how I feel when they’re around.

I don’t hate going out places.

I just hate the discomfort I feel when I’m there.

No one is at fault.

I’m not arrogant or unkind.

It’s a fear I have within that has me entirely consumed.

I lose my breath in the crowds.

I become anxious and withdrawn.

I start to panic…

Everyone must be staring, silently judging my every move.

They appear to be looking my way and must think I’m ridiculous.

When approached, I lose all train of thought and don’t know what to say.

If only I could stop over-thinking and over-analyzing every little thing.

If only social skills came naturally to me like it seems to for them.

If only I’d stop comparing myself to everyone and everything.

Life would be much easier then.

But I am not them.

I am me.

A person who lives with social anxiety..


16 responses to “Inside Social Anxiety

  1. Dit is op Healthcares herblogden reageerde:
    you can’t see it all, it’s all about discomfort and being able to live with it around other humans who don’t understand …

  2. People will judge you all your life kait, that’s just a given, but how you treat yourself is Large. You need to have an affair with yourself and fall in Love:)
    What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us.
- Ralph Waldo Emerson

  3. As a counselor, I’ve studied and have a good understanding of social anxiety, but you post gives me a new perspective on the condition. Thanks for sharing.

  4. I love this poem. I have PTSD and the social anxiety is quite similar because the smallest thing in a setting that isn’t in your control can trigger memories, flashbacks and cause panic attacks. Thanks for sharing, you are very talented.

  5. I’m glad to hear you have a handle on SAD. I figure that I’ve had it since I became aware of myself, and unfortunately it hasn’t really gone away (I’m nearly 60). But I’ve handled it the best I can with rational thought and overcome the worse aspects of it when it raises it’s head.

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